Tuesday, May 13, 2008

i don't like counting sheep...

so we do the music library game (ipod, media player, etc.):

First & Last Songs (sorted by title):
Megamix - Milli Vanilli
[Untitled Track] Watermark

Shortest & Longest Songs:
Fresher than a Night at the W - Tobymac (:47)
Alloway Grove - Paolo Nutini (14:16)

First & Last Albums (by title):
40 Acres - Caedmon's Call
Yes I Am - Melissa Eteridge

First & Last Artist:
10,000 Maniacs
ZZ Top

Search for the following words. How many songs show up?

~Sex: 5
~Death: none
~Love: 82
~You: 170
~Home: 18
~Boy: 30
~Girl: 32

First 5 songs that come up on Party Shuffle:

Invincible - Pat Benatar
Glory Days - Bruce Springsteen
[Untitled Track] - Over the Rhine
Taylor Sorenson - Bethlehem Girl
Leave - Glen Hansard

Now (duh dunt duh dah!) for the famous questions...

The Rules:
1. Put your music player on shuffle
2. Press forward for each question
3. Use the song title as the answer to your question

Q: What does the next year have in store for you?
A: Here Comes the Rain Again - Eurythmics
yikes, the wet stuff from the sky I enjoy, metaphorical rain can be scary tho...

Q: What does your love life look like next year?
A: Bring Me to Life - Evanescence
ahh, someone on the horizon maybe?

Q: What do you say when life gets hard?
A: Broken Hearted Hoover Fixer Sucker Guy - Glen Hansard
YES! this is the best grief song EVER!

Q: Song that reminds you of the good times?
A: Megamix - Milli Vanilli
good times. ahhh the 80's...if I could only go back with what I know now, dangerous I'd be!

Q: What do you think of when you get up in the morning?
A: Fly Away - Taylor Sorenson
ahhhh, freedom. yes, I'd love to drive down to Georgia now, or anywhere for that matter.

Q: What song will you dance to at your wedding?
A: Walk This Way - Run DMC/Aerosmith
awesome. just freakin awesome. you know we'll have a break dancin battle

Q: Song that reminds you of your first kiss?
A: Lookin Forward - Over the Rhine
yeah, just a happy warm fuzzy melody for your whole day

Q: Your favorite saying?
A: Goody Two Shoes - Adam Ant
hee hee

Q: Favorite place?
A:. Shine Inside - Duncan Sheik

Q: Most missed memory?
A: You Be Illin - Run DMC
perhaps too much 80's music in my collection...or maybe my inner old skool rap star still wanting to shine

Q: What song describes your best friend?
A: Iris - Goo Goo Dolls

Q: What song describes your ex?
A: Don't Get me Wrong - Pretenders
indeed, sing it girl.

Q: Where would you go on your first date?
A: Kokomo - Beach Boys
now we're talkin - Aruba, Jamaica...Bermuda, Bahama...Key Largo, Montigo oh I do wanna go

Q: Drug of choice?
A: Cornerstone - Day of Fire
my rock, my refuge. interesting this shuffle insight ;) JC would have a pint with me i think

Q: What song best describes you?
A: Dream On - Aerosmith
classic, melodic, dramatic, screams occasionally. sings for everything. yep. that's me

Q: What is the thing you like doing most?
A: Everybody Wants to Rule the World - Tears for Fears
maybe I should run for president

Q: What song best describes the president?
A: Go - Thousand Foot Krutch
huh, there's my answer

Q: Where will you be in ten years?
A: Still Haven't Found what I'm looking for - U2
well, I do hope my life isn't stagnant. change is the only constant

Q: Your love life right now?
A: Christmas Present - Andy Williams
that's weird, I don't remember getting that...oh, wait, maybe it's on the way...I'll be good this year Santa!

Q: What is your state of mind at the moment?
A: Theme from Greatest American Hero

that's right: believe it or not, i'm walkin on air, i never thought i could feel so free...probably because i'm not wearin any underwear at the moment. that's pretty darn free people

Q: How will you die?
A: A Rush of Blood to the Head - Coldplay
more like my butt, cause I've been sitting here typing this forever...but seriously, that's funny.

yes, i see that i need to hurry up and load my new content soon! :)

good times, good times.

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

comfortable with uncomfortableness

i can't believe the last time i wrote was to post pics from my vacation. maybe i can believe it. highlights from the past 6 weeks:

-taught day and night classes last term + maintained my reg hours at the spa = too many hours/week to count + one exhausted Jill.

-sprained my ankle but good (read: 70% tears) and relived the joy of crutches with newness of das boot (basically a removable cast, easier for showers). no good story this time. just walking around at Heather's new place, aka "The Steps of Death" (Leigh fell twice while we moved H. in...)

-bonus: got two weeks off from the spa mandated by the aforementioned injury

and now you're up to date.

i've been just considering over my hiatus, as i prepared to head back to the spa this week, how uncomfortable i've been there for some time. whether or not it's time to move on. i hadn't really thought about it til my supervisor at school asked me last week how it's felt not being at the spa for a few weeks. i heard myself say that i noticed my stress level had been drastically lower. then i began to process the words i said out loud, because, of course, now that made what i have been feeling internally for months but refused to acknowledge, real.

i noticed that as my first day back came closer and closer, slowly and steadily, my anxiety level began rising. knowing the best thing i could do for the people i work for and with is pray for them, and not even knowing where to begin, and wondering even if it's not where i'm supposed to be anymore and maybe it's time to jump ship (there's a lot of that going on there lately, not that i'm a lemming) there comes a small, still whisper:

maybe it's about being comfortable with the uncomfortableness, comfortable amidst the uncomfortableness.

not forever, for now. that's all i know.


on a more serious note...