thoughts in the moment

The divine manifestation is ubiquitous,
Only our eyes are not open to it. . . .
Awe is what moves us forward. . . .

Live from your own center. . . .
The divine lives within you.
The separateness apparent in the world is secondary.
Beyond the world of opposites is an unseen,
but experienced, unity and identity in us all.

Today the planet is the only proper "in group."
Participate joyfully in the sorrows of the world.
We cannot cure the world of sorrows,
but we can choose to live in joy.

You must return with the bliss and integrate it.
The return is seeing the radiance is everywhere.
The world is a match for us.
We are a match for the world.
The spirit is the bouquet of nature. . . .

Sanctify the place you are in.
Follow your bliss. . . .

~ Joseph Campbell ~

i feel like the kid from Finding Forrester today, borrowing words until you have your own. i sit here with a pencil stuck behind my ear as if it being there will somehow indicate i have just paused between writing and it will keep my train of thought in tact.

the truth of the matter is there are so many thoughts trying to be processed at the same time that i think my brain is constipated. definitely not much moving going on. maybe i've gone back to being so analytical (definitely function well there) because i've had a huge taste, like a serious buffet - not a wine tasting, of understanding and perspective and that is the only thing that satifies me now.

it's more than a hunger, i feel driven to seek it out, like an addiction, doing whatever it takes to get more. i want all the emotional and spiritual freeze-points of my life to make sense. i crave the understanding, and the freedom that comes with it, and desperately want to know what lies ahead. like a little child tugging on Daddy's shirt saying over and over again, "are we there yet? huh, Daddy? huh? huh? huh? are we there yet? are we there yet?"

what great things, Father? what's the plan, Daddy? are you just giving me time to process and really (really) get the understanding and perspective you've already give me? or do you just want me to really (really) get that the most important thing is being still and knowing You? maybe that by being still, i can really get to know You, because You already know me. i'm the one in the dark, but the light at the end of the tunnel sure is getting brighter everyday.